who needs sleep?

so, it’s been a while. not much new to update. it’s been cool to have college kids back, but it also makes it pretty hard to not feel like i’m doing nothing with my life. but i really don’t want to go back to school, if i did it would be a.just to assure myself that i won’t wind up homeless or living with my mom forever and b.just to make my mom happy. neither of which are reasons to go to school. i should go when i want too, but lifes too short for that i suppose. i guess its time to “shit or get off the pot”. i half wish i lived in the 70’s when college degree was like one third as important as it is now. especially with our economy heading into a slump a bachelors degree is probably not even going to be that highly regarded. i think this summer i’m taking advantage of my license. i’m going to go places. not hang around this lameass town. braintree can suck it. i love the people here but i just cant be here anymore. there is legit this enormous earth that you will never see in it’s entirety and i’ve wasted enough time seeing barely any of it. and when we die if there truely is no god, i dont want to rot in the ground without a legacy to live behind, you know? i want to say i did something amazing. this isnt even trying to be morbid, somewhere in how depressing of the thought that when you die thats it you need to find the beauty in life and fucking do something. some people never leave the town they were born in, the state, some never ride airplanes, hell some never leave their house. am i the only one who thinks that is the biggest waste of life ever? so with that said, some drastic changes are about to be made, i’ve just quit smoking ciggs. i’ve decided to relax on drinking for a bit. not stop but cut down. and now ryan and i have the april 12th show(at the all asia cafe in cambridge tickets are $8 and i have them printed finally), and wampapalooza april 17th, and tom said since we are now playing shows we can probably open for senior discount, which is sssiiiiiiicck. but alas, i must head to work so i will post again whenever.

this is just a fuse lit
it starts at my fingertips
and burns up to my heart
explodes now watch it fall apart

what have you done?
who are you today?
you’ve taken my bones
sowed them to my dismay
and i chime with the wind
can’t you hear? hear ‘em sin
and sing

this is just a fuse blown
flip the breaker from her throne
before she breaks all of me
contagiously i’ll spread this misery

what have you done?
who are you to to say?
you’ve taken my words
and twisted them to fray
and you sparked them dim
can’t you hear? hear it burning
and singing

these are seed’s sowed on a string
tied around my neck so i’d grow a head
upon these beaten shoulders i bring
myself to give a second glance and you said
“i still won’t look you in the eye”
but why…..why?