if you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
hey there hi there ho there. just kidding i’m not from michigan or anything. so, yesterday to today was pretty uneventful, just worked 4-9. then went to germano’s with billy and we smoked and watched entourage. after that we called dan and zack who proceeded to take us on a two hour long adventure to find an open taco bell, resulting in us giving up and just getting wendy’s. go figure. anyways then i just went home and watched some of scream and passed out. scream still one of my favorite movies, definetly favorite horror series even if it is somewhat of a satire. today i’m just loafing around ‘till a 4-9 again. i beat gears of war so i have to give that back to ryan…and yeeeaaah. so i guess i’ll post my first lyric/poem/story today. they will be recycled from the ones on my myspace so anyone who read those don’t expect to see new things all too often. anyways i’m out so here is the poem, i wrote it shortly after my dad passed and it’s for him, probably one of my favorite’s i’ve ever written so i figured i’d start with it, hope you enjoy.
just breathe
ill ask you one more time
before i step away
swelling
the tears drowning my eyes
haven’t lay
to rest since you have
ive been picking up bad habits
just trying to cope have
you ever felt this vulnerably addicted
to the way things felt before
i’m missing every sentence
every single fucking word
i ever took for granted
while you still were here
i wish these words would reach you
and my conscience was clear
i wish i could tell you i love you
just one more fucking time
i wish i could tell myself
that every thing’s alright
it’s not
and when i look in the mirror
i just get depressed
i hate
that i have this constant fear
of feeling like everything on my chest
i can’t get any of it off and
it’s weighing me down
with these drugs and these butts
and drowning in alcohol
i wish i could learn
to correct all my mistakes
take pointers from you
and accomplish things but im innate
for fucking up and letting go
giving up before i know that
i could do this that it’s okay
please just breathe Dad i’ll listen to anything you say
